April 16- Still Breathing

You think that this  right

but I swear to you

I will break you heart

I will hurt you

 

I am nothing anymore

I have a darkness that hurts me

and those around me

 

I have drawn away from those close to me

Maybe I was never close to them before.

There is no way out.  I will not hang on anymore

I will let go

of you

 

I have been stuck here,

I have fallen into this silence

And don’t you come for me.

Because you will not make it out here

without me hurting you

Because I will break your heart

 

It is all I have ever known to do

I cannot stop what I know to be true.

I am cold as can be

But be assured that I am still breathing

Even if it is the most shallow I have

ever breathed before.

I am still

breathing.

 

J.R